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Monday, March 17, 2014

Busy!

Busy!  Yes, it seems that I am using that word a lot lately and yet I find I am spending less and less time doing what I deem productive work. 

My mind is filled with the thoughts of making things better and becoming more productive and in doing so I feel I am losing my grip on what little I have had control of in my life for so many years.  I can't make the decisions for everyone that I want them to see as their own.  I guess manipulation would possibly work, but I hate the thought of ever doing that.  Then I guess the next logical step would be to step back and listen to God.

My life has been a roller coaster of emotions for as long as I can remember.  Some memories I wish I could forget and others I wish I had never considered in the first place.  I have made some poor decisions and yet, I have been blessed "beyond measure."

My thoughts are so random at times I have a hard time focusing on the present for looking at the past and the future.

What is the remedy?

Stopping and spending some much needed time just talking to God.  Take time for the most important person in my life, my God and Father.  I know He wishes I acted like He was more important at times, but in reality, I have had to step out from under my own desires and step more openly in my mind toward doing what is best for everyone I touch with my life.  I must and have to pray more to revamp my commitment to Him.  For me to be who I want to be I am going to have to turn off my drive and turn on God's lead.

Busy?  Yes, but hopefully in a more productive and spiritual way.

I'll see you later.